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Sunday, April 15, 2012

Keep on Working

Well, it finally happened.

I got laid off.

I'd been waiting ever so long. Not like a kid waiting for Christmas who can't sleep at night either. More like a person who has been watching people he works with getting laid off every week and can't stand the suspense of when your time is coming. The waiting and wondering. Ooo! I made it to morning break! Phew! Made it through lunch! Clocking out on a Friday afternoon thankful you've made i through another week. Seeing the Hatchet Man on a day he usually doesn't come in and knowing someone is going to be on the outside looking in soon. Usually more than one someone too. That kind of waiting.

See, I knew I was on the list too. No, really. I won't go into details of personalities and loyalties and politics, suffice it to say; I knew.

I should've been working on my résumé ages ago. There was a computer virus a long time ago and I lost whatever versions I'd had. I didn't have any hard copy to simply retype. So I knew I had to do it. And I had become unhappy enough that I should've initiated the change to begin with. And when I say unhappy I mean it. I don't remember a positive word passing my lips while I was there in a long, long time.

I'm not tellin' ya this for you to feel sorry for me. I've been in a lot worse scrapes.

Many people feel desperate losing a job at 50. I'm don't. I think I'm kinda relieved. Well, yeah. Relieved. As much as I felt I really needed the job, as lazy as I was in not writing a résumé; I didn't want to uproot myself again and start over some where else. As much as I'll always tell you that change is good, you don't always greet it with your arms wide open. Some times it's just hard. So I stayed. I stayed and did the best job I could while feeling the breeze of the pendulum as it got closer and closer. I stayed and watched good people have to leave without a chance to say goodbye. I stayed even though I knew.

But ultimately I wasn't given the choice. So even though I knew there needed to be a change and was avoiding it, it came wrapped up in pink paper.

Now, with all this talk of me knowing it was coming some people I know would probably say it was a self fulfilling prophecy. You know, if you believe your marriage is going to fail you act in way that actually expedites the matter. The term was coined by Robert Merton. In his book Social Theory and Social Structure he contends that the prediction is false but made true by a person's actions. Most people associate this tendency in negative ways. It works positively too though. If you look in the mirror before you leave the house for the day and say to yourself that today is going to be the best day ever, you will inevitably act in ways that will help that along. Consciously or unconsciously.

All of that is not to be confused with The Law of Attraction. I haven't really studied The Law. From what little I've read it seems to be a system of visualization and meditation. You attract to yourself whatever you put your attention to. Like attracts like. If you believe you have infinite possibilities then that's what you'll have. If you believe you're poor or alone then that's what you are. It seems to me to have a lot to do with materialism too. Something like if you visualize abundant riches you'll wake up a millionaire. I've got little to say about it really. It seems a sham where people are willing to tell you the secrets to getting extraordinary things if you buy this or that book. Or, you know, maybe even book 2. I don't really know though. If anyone has had success with this and would like to share, you know how to get a hold of me.

So there's one theory that sort of says once you get something into your head you'll act out in whatever way needed to ensure the result you're expecting. The other theory is more about being an active participant in your life. Figuring out what you want or need and trying to influence the universe to do your bidding. There is a third thing I'd like to bring up though. It has to do with subjective reality.

Subjective reality is a belief system where there is only one singular consciousness in the universe. You. Everything else you see, touch, or love are projections of your thoughts. There nothing influencing what happens in your life. No predictions to prove or disprove. There is no universe to spar with and manipulate to your wishes. You are the universe all on your own and all of your wants and intentions are manifested because you create it. You are the creator. It's like dreaming. Everything in your dreams are projections of your dream thoughts. It's the same thing in the physical world. Everything is a projection of your thoughts. Now that's some heavy stuff huh?

How do you suppose these three things are connected? The only thing that I can put my finger on right away is feeling like everyone has the chance to get, or feel, or want anything we want. The thing is is that there are no real short cuts I think. As powerful and vast as the mind is, it all takes work. It takes you to know what you truly want. It takes you to be ever mindful that you can change what you have to what you want. You need to work. You need to keep on working. The change will not come instantly, but if you put your intention out there in the universe and work on it, things will change. Ya gotta put the work in to get the results. If you want to be a happier person, act on it and be mindful of it. If you want more money, do something about it. Go back to school for that degree you never finished. Get another job. Even a second job. Don't just wish for it.

Work for what you want. Work for it and keep on working.

All right.

I'm pullin' for ya. We're all in this together.